MY Winning Outcome.

So I have always read all this junk about goal setting. And I must admit I am just NOT a goal oriented person. For whatever reason I can tell myself "I will lose 20 pounds" a million times and it just doesn't work for me. I can tell myself "once I hit a 5 pound loss I will reward myself with x" That doesn't work for me either. I will never understand how goals help you achieve what you want. They don't motivate me. In fact sometimes they do the opposite of that and I feel overwhelmed trying to achieve a difficult task.

So as many of you know I am doing WeightWatchers. I have done it in the past and it has worked for me. I love the program, it's easy to follow. I don't feel deprived. (most of the time anyway) Plus I love all the motivating articles and things that are available for me online so I can do this in the privacy of my own home (or office). However, it's HARD. No matter how easy it is. Weight loss is Hard. It takes work. And a lot of it. It was easy before, I could workout when I wanted, could plan and cook meals without getting interrupted. This time...It's hard. I can plan my meals until I am blue in the face and usually end up resorting to something that doesn't require me to be in the kitchen cause I am alone with the baby. I get home from work and picking her up and it's the LAST thing I want to do. I want to simply hang out with the Mons. I already most of the time feel like I don't get to see her enough. And for whatever reason I am just having the hardest time sticking to this and making it a priority. Even though I realize I do not simply want to lose weight. I want to lose weight to be healthier. I want to live longer and be more active. I want to feel good and look good. I want to be a good, no scratch that, I want to be a GREAT example for my kids (or kid at this point). But how do I do it? How do I get my mind in the place it needs to be in for all of that to work? I can't live off frozen dinners. I can't live on salads. I LOVE doughnuts and candy and chips.

So here I am I guess. Re-committing AGAIN. For like the 9,000th time. I will plan my days, AND stick to them. I WILL get some exercise. I WILL take the time I need to do this knowing that it will be hard and tough in the meantime but it will make my FUTURE brighter, and make me be able to spend the time I want with Lily.

I was reading an article on Winning Outcome And decided that even though goals aren't usually my way to go, I feel I should put SOMETHING out into the universe.

So I'll start SMALL. Cause really that is where I need to start.

I will track all my food this week and choose healthy options. I will get in some activity (walks outside with the Mons) this weekend. And I will NOT beat myself up if I slip a little. No one is perfect and I don't need to be!

Wish me luck (again)!