Why is it so hard?

To be healthy? To live healthy? To find time to exercise? To eat right? I don't understand how people can say it is and how once you are in the habit of doing it, it becomes easy and some say even enjoyable. I can't seem to get to that point. Heck I can't even make it a whole week of making the right choices and getting some activity in. Truth be told. I'm tired. I'm tired of trying and failing. I'm tired from work and want to sit on my butt and do nothing but eat potato chips and eat cake. The little time I DO get with Lily I want to spend it ALL with her. I don't want to take 30-60 minutes of that precious time to workout if I can't include her somehow. When all is said and done, Monday thru Friday I am lucky if I get to see her for 5 waking hours a day. 5 FREAKING HOURS A DAY. Heck my In-Laws get to see her for like 9.5-10 hours a day (not including naps, that she isn't spectacular about anyway) So those precious 5 hours I get I want to have. And I want to be with her, playing with her watching her grow.

And truth be told, being healthy and working out are SO low on my priority list that all I end up doing is beating myself up for not being able to stick with anything or even make a simple choice like whether to have cake or fruit. It's not fair. Life's not fair. And it makes me sad. Sad that my IL's see my baby more than I do. Sad that I can't seem to get control of my weight and my habits.

I WANT to be healthy.
I WANT to weigh less.
I WANT to look and feel great in my skin.
And most importantly...
I WANT to spend MORE time with the baby.

People tell me the grass is always greener on the other side. That I would get sick of being with her. But what's the alternative? I get to see her far less than anyone who would babysit. Be it daycare or my In laws. That I'll probably miss her first steps, her first words and all of that because I have to work.

I know I know. Pity Party, table for 1 please.

Lest we forget, I do feel blessed. I AM a lucky person.

I do have a wonderful husband. A beautiful Baby girl. Wonderful Family that happily watches her for us so we don't HAVE to put her in daycare right now.

I'm just struggling right now. BIG TIME. And I don't know what to do.

She's got teeth!

What? Not what you were expecting? My Mother in Law saw this pacifier and had to get it for her. And I have to admit, it IS pretty humorous. I mean she's a baby. I HOPE her real teeth won't look like that, but as my Mother in Law and I pointed out...we will love her anyway. Though we would promptly be getting them fixed.

Which brings us to my next subject.

I'm getting my wisdom teeth out here soon. And shortly thereafter. BRACES. I'm not super thrilled but the end result will be worth it. I am just not happy with my smile, I've always been very self-conscience about my smile, but now it also comes down to my dental health. I do have a pretty bad overbite that I would like to have fixed. So the next couple months I will be enjoying my non-metal mouth until I get those bad boys on. But you didn't come here (does ANYONE come here?) to read about me did ya?

Back to Lily-Bob... (get it....lily-bob. Like Billy Bob....oh never mind)

We also have a regular Sunday routine of sorts, that has sorta been interrupted by Adam working it now. But We always read the newspaper together. The ads anyway. You know to see all the stuff we can't afford to buy. ANYWAY. Lily thought she would join in this past week. Her and Adam had a grand ol' time.

Note: She is looking at a TOOL ad. Like father like daughter.

Happy Day after Election Day

I am so unbelievably happy that the election is over. I've had my fill of it all. Done with the political ads. Done with the debates. Done with knowing I'm going to lose but even with voting not being able to do anything about it.

So this is where I sit. I KNEW I was going to lose. I knew it would come to this and that Obama had lots of supporters. But I also figured that out in our wonderful country that there were at least a few more supporters. And was hoping that we would lose marginally. But it wasn't marginal at all. Obama won by a landslide. And so it all begins.

Did I ever mention that I am a poor sport and don't like losing?

*pouts*

Happy Halloween!

Happy Halloween everyone! Ok for like the 2 people that actually read my blog that is. :-)

Lillian was a Ladybug (or Lilybug as some have called her). We got her all dressed up and brought her over to Adam's parents house and then over to his grandma's. She was overtired, teething and just in general not a happy girl. BUT she was cute while she did it. And she slept hard when we got home.

Some pictures for your viewing pleasure.

What? You didn't know that Ladybugs suck on Pacifiers? They don't. But Lilybugs do, especially when they are of the tired variety.

Who needs teeth anyway?

Well Big News for Lily! She's getting some teethers on the bottom! We are excited but frustrated all at the same time. I mean, what makes a baby crabbier than teething. But at the same time this is a big event! Our little baby is growing up! Getting teeth of her very own. (not that she was previously sharing teeth with someone)

I'll update when you can actually see more, since right now she you can't really see them unless she is screaming.

My little girl is really growing up...

She can stand By herself (with the help of the couch) I can't believe it. She's not even 5 months old yet.

My little girl is growing up!

A Visit to the Pumpkin Patch.

Such a curious Girl she is!

Look at our Little Punkin'!

Such a big smile!

Me And Lily with her ^Wild^ Hair!

So on Sunday we went to a local orchard that has a pumpkin patch. I thought it would be fun to pick out our own pumpkins all the while getting in some good photos of our Punkin' in the pumpkin patch.



We did the petting zoo! Where a llama almost ate Lily's shoe, he was only trying to do her a favor as I'm sure she doesn't like wearing shoes anyway. They had Chicks, llamas, goats, sheep, a pony, a donkey, baby ducks and a very long haired rabbit. Of course we didn't let lily pet them as she surely would have put her hand in her mouth and ended up with mad cow disease or something similar. OK maybe not, but who wants to clean baby hands. Plus she seemed fine with just watching them.



Then we went to watch how they used to make apple juice in the "good ole' days" Which really did not seem worth grinding up all those apples for that tiny amount of juice, but what do I know right?



Of course we walked thru the little store that had several varieties of apples, pumpkins, gourds and such. Then we decided to do the pumpkin patch. I mean, after all, that was the reason we went. We wandered around there. Found the perfect place to do photos! But not really any good pumpkins, it seems we may have gone a little to late as they were all picked over, but we walked thru it all anyway, which was fun. It was a beautiful day.




Then came the hayride thru the orchard. Which I'm sure most people would find kinda lame. I thought it was fun as I had never been on a hayride before, and Lily was happy as long as she was outside. So we enjoyed that.



After that we were off to the store to pick out some pumpkins they had pre-picked. So we got a couple of those and headed home. A very nice day! And Lily enjoyed it too!